Spend the whole morning cleaning up my cupboard.
Omg ..!! It took me hours.
What’s wrong with me..? The clothes, cosmetics and junk jewelry I have wasted my precious time, money and energy to buy senselessly and hoard for years is amazing.
Why don’t I realize that shimmer and glimmer on the face only suits models on magazine covers?
That jeweled bidhis make me look silly and decked up.
That chunky ethnic jewelry I buy from handicraft shops looks so garish and gaudy on me that I finally just push it back after wasting time contemplating whether I should wear it with my handlooms.
They only make me resemble Protima Bedi on a bad day.
That bohemian style doesn’t suit my looks personality or my lifestyle.
That jeweled stilettos are only good to look at. They are h horrible to wear esp in evenings.
That organza makes me look fat. Organdie pricks my skin.
That drop earrings and huge hoops only make me feel my age. I would look foolish in them.
What makes me buy all thee things. Which of the seven vices..?
Is it greed? Or pride.?
Why don’t I realize that I will never use these things?
They give me some pleasure when I buy it.
But they are hardly used and just serve the purpose of irritating me. Cluttering my cupboard.
Making me realize that my lifestyle is too busy for all these things.. That I am getting old. ..
I should realize that I am a mature woman . A busy professional juggling her home and career.
That I should have a vision about the my lifestyle, personality and choices when I shop.
That I always end up wearing the same few soft simple snug handloom churidars with white Kurthas and shawls, tiny elegant jewelry and soothing light silks in mild shades that makes me feel feminine...
That my feet only tolerate soft, cushioned, snug footwear.
That all I need and use is a good cleanser, toner , moisturizer , a coral pink lipstick and mascara and a tiny black bindhi. And of course a perfume..
I was ruthless this time. Removed all the ‘hardly worn' clothes, cosmetics and footwear.. To be handed out to those who will use them, enjoy them..
And I have taken a resolution that I will only buy what I really need and use..
I will simplify my life..
Wish I could do it with my thoughts, emotions and relationships too..