Saturday, May 13, 2006
A Doc And A Mom..
I was in my Op yesterday when the cell rang.
It was Taj on the other side.. he sounded strange..
“Hey what’s the matter..?”
I am used to my sons calling me while i am on duty .. for demands for something nice to eat to be bought on the way home, to bitch about the other.. To complain about some vague health problem.. and it’s the third one that makes me immediately jittery..
“Mama..” he started to sob..
“OMG..!! what’s the problem.. ?”
I forgot that a patient was sitting in front of me.. I forgot about my ‘calm doc act’
“Mama I was zipping my shorts.. my ding-dong is trapped in the zipper..”
His sobs came out louder..
My baby in pain.. and I am so far off..
That’s a situation when I lose control.. I lose all my professional coolness..
The jelly soft mother in me surfaces.. almost to the point of hysteria..
I blabbered something to the patient .. called my colleague.. sent the patient to her and was out of the hospital in two seconds..
The car wouldn’t run fast enough for me.. I cursed at the traffic jam..
My baby was in pain and I had to sooth it away..
Ooooff..! I had reached home..I honked at my gate repeatedly..
He was rolling on the bed crying and howling.. wouldn’t permit me to look or touch....
Finally I coaxed him.. tried to unzip it.. no it was jammed and edema was building up slowly..
Ohhhh..! he was yelling.. tears streamed down his cheeks..
"Ok we will go to the hospital." I soothed..
“Go away…!” He howled at Goutam who was standing and watching the scene , grinning spitefully..
“Go away..!!” I yelled at Gautam..
The maid came running..
“What happened..?” she looked confused.. she had seen him sitting and watching the TV only a short time back..
“Go away..!!” my baby screamed in pain and shame..
“Go away..!!” I yelled at her… Hiding my 13yr old’s private parts..
“ The surgeon will give local injection and remove it..” I hugged him tight.. kissing his tear soaked chubby cheeks..
“I want anesthesia..!!” He screamed.. “Not injection..!!” ..
“Ok.. ok..” I fussed.. stroking his hair..
But he couldn’t walk.. the pain was too much.. he had himself cutoff the shorts away with scissors.. only the zip was attached to the body..
I rang peeps..
We took him. Wrapped in a dhothi..
The pain subsided as soon as the local anesthetic was given..
The pediatric surgeon tried his best under local anesthesia.. but the zip was jammed.. Edema was building up..
Finally emergency circumcision had to be done under general anesthesia..
He is ok now.. Shy about the incident but loving all the pampering he is getting now..
A small act of carelessness.. but the pain and shame he suffered was terrible..
I felt so incompetent and frustrated .. Unable to do anything.. Even taking him to the hospital, I couldn’t manage myself..
The soft ,emotional side of me that I hate.. The mother in me that i love ..